I am new too!
I am not a cocaine addict, but I am in love with someone addicted to crack, I found alot of strength through reading these threads,and I hope you will too !
I can only tell you that I hope you can keep it up, for your own sake as well as those whom love you. I do know people whom have stoped, One woman whom was addicted to crack on a daily basis, left her crack husband , got a job went to rehab and has been clean, and HAPPY for over a year, yes she says its a struggle, but she is determined not to go back, I wish you luck, and I am sure many of these posts will help you, when you feel like doing it , use your power to get on the internet and come here till it passes, when I get so sad I don't feel like I can make it through the day, ( because I miss my man) I come here and read, and I feel like others know my pain.