Wow, I am sorry that you are going through this, especially with young children to take care of.
It's great that you have found us, and wiser folks than I will be along soon. Read the stickies at the top of the forum...very helpful. Reading the AA Big Book was helpful for me too in understanding the disease that is Alcoholism.
We did not CAUSE it...
We cannot CONTROL it...
We cannot CURE it...
The only thing we have any control over is ourselves. Most of us here thought we could influence our A's drinking...we bargained, we begged, we yelled...mostly we made ourselves crazy...literally. But none of us can change the drinking habits of an A, nothing but their own desire to change.
Stay, read, post. SR has changed my life for the better. And I hope we can help you too
