I know how you feel and I am so sorry you are going through this right now. I was relieved when my exab was arrested (every time he was arrested I should say) because I knew he would be safe as well. But it is also a relief to know that I would not have to put up with anything from him, his drama, his relapses...ect. And I felt guilty for a long time about feeling happy he was there. But that passed soon after. Take care of all the little ones and be strong.....hugs to you.