"I am just not the type of person who can sit back and say I have no control over something."
Neither am I - Admitting weakness or failure is not in my vocabulary, however until you truly accept that you are powerless over alcohol and cannot drink it is a struggle.
Recovery usually involves a lifestyle change which may mean new friends, not going to bars (at least early on) and taking up new activities to expend energy.
I remember very clearly the moment I had to admit and accept my weakness toward alcohol; then I had to put the hard work in to stay sober each day. In the end, you will be rewarded with your life back and aspire to reach your potential.
Dave