Suki44883,
I'm more nervous about me seeing him then him seeing my daughter. I think it's best for me not to see him. My sister already agreed that she will take my daughter to see him so I don't have to face him. I'm not sure if he "deserves" it though. For some reason I think I'm running against a clock. Probably because I think maybe seeing his daughter and looking in her eyes will motivate him.