Woke up to a severe nightmare this morning. My first nightmare of being drunk since I became sober. Waking up startled recounting last night, I felt a pain of anguish – like I felt when I actually did wake up from being drunk. It took me a good 3-4 minutes to realize it was a dream. It was truly awful. I hate it. I felt like I didn’t want to live when I woke up. The nightmare consisted of me being drunk doing risqué things I would’ve done when I was drunk ending up on the internet. OMG. It seemed so f*ing real that I am heading to an AA meeting because I feel guilty. I HATE ALCOHOL! Even sober it has screwed with me!
