imatryinhard

Woke up to a severe nightmare this morning. My first nightmare of being drunk since I became sober. Waking up startled recounting last night, I felt a pain of anguish – like I felt when I actually did wake up from being drunk. It took me a good 3-4 minutes to realize it was a dream. It was truly awful. I hate it. I felt like I didn’t want to live when I woke up. The nightmare consisted of me being drunk doing risqué things I would’ve done when I was drunk ending up on the internet. OMG. It seemed so f*ing real that I am heading to an AA meeting because I feel guilty. I HATE ALCOHOL! Even sober it has screwed with me!

DayTrader

I think it's good that we get those kinds of reminders once and a while..... not that I can be scared sober, but it sure leads to a lot of gratitude for my sobriety when i wake up feeling all those old feelings again.....then realize it was just a dream and they vanish.

NEOMARXIST

Just be grateful that it wasn't real and try to use it to strengthen your sobriety i.e- how crap it would be to drink again.

I know drinking/using dreams are pretty common, especially in early sobriety. They were for me anyway. I still get them from time to time but they strengthen my resolve if anything.

Peace

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I rarely get drinking dreams anymore. Be glad it was only a dream. With time they will go away.

imatryinhard

Thanks DayTrader, just came back from a meeting. Sobbed through the meeting which I havent done since Meeting 1. You're right the dream was a very useful reminder.

imatryinhard

Thanks for the HUGS. They help!

imatryinhard

At the meeting today (not a newbie meeting) I became obsessed with asking various of attendees if they too had experienced The Nightmares. Everyone had. I am grateful that it was a dream. I dont understand why this happens tho -

Thank you!

Forwards

Just a quick message to say hi imatryinhard. I'm still trying to understand the frequent vivid dreams myself as they can be very unsettling indeed.

A friendly word of caution though - if I wake up having imagined yet another drinking disaster it's a strong trigger for me to 'just settle my nerves'. Contrary? you bet, and it never turns out well. A set morning routine of coffee, healthy breakfast, shower etc. does help if you can work through it regardless.

Best wishes, Forwards.

Dee74

Hi Aimee

I'm sorry the dream upset you that much. They are pretty common. I try to treat them like any other dream

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imatryinhard

I didnt drink. Its irritating that the nightmares haunt us for whatever reason. I will be grateful for the nightmare. At this moment I am drained.

Thank you!

imatryinhard

Thanks!

Why do they happen tho?

imatryinhard

I am so exhausted right now. Not much good for much. So - since I am no good to do business work, I will do my hw assignment from my sponsor: I must recount EVERY SINGLE drunk event I participated. I am gettting prepared to do this assignmemt for 1.5 hours which may mean a large Kleenex box.

Here I go: Step 1 HW Assignment

Dee74

If you're a follower of Freud's dream analysis, it might be the mind's way of working out and resolving the inner struggle and turmoil most of us have in early recovery...

but really - I have no idea, sorry LOL

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Dee74

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