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Hi Everyone,
I've been reading here for a few days and thought it was time to say Hello. A little background... My AH went to rehab in 1999 for alcohol. He embraced sobreity with everything he had. He became a totally different person. He was a pleasure to be around. Our marraige flourished. He got into a career making great money and life was good. He was an awesome father to our kids. We would talk about the miracle of sobreity. Everything AA told him could happen did. Around late 2004 he met a guy( through work) who I immediately didnt care for. GUy was a drug addict who had to be sober because of some legal things. I think AH wanted to help him. AH asked guy to go to AA meeting, but was turned down and made fun of for going. I soon noticed AH not going to meetings as much. In 2005 AH got hurt at work. I was SHOCKED when he came home from hosp. ( with stiches) with a script for narcotic pain meds. Before this he would NEVER take any narcotics. Looking back I think his pill taking started before this accident but I'll never know. AH went to family Dr. and got a script for percocet. WHen I found out I called Dr. and told him AH was in recovery. As you can imagine AH wasnt happy with me. Between 2005 and May of this year things *seemed* ok. I knew *something* was going on but could never put my finger on it. THere was always alot of money missing, but AH always had an excuse and dummy me I believed him. Things came to a head in May. AH started "nodding out" and it was SO obvious he was on opiates. One night I thought for sure he was going to die. I talked him into going to rehab. He did 7 days of detox for opiate addiction and 5 days in rehab. He left against medical advice. THings started out good with him going to meetings and working his program. 2 months ago meetings stopped. I said something to him about it was was basically told to go get f'ed. He's taking cash but being very sneaky about it( using debit gettign cash back) I know he is using again. Not everyday but occasionaly. I feel detached. He wants NOTHING do to with me. He knows I know. I've made a decision to work on myself. I have a life and I want to live it. Im trying to do things different this time. He has his journey and I have mine. I wanna live again. So, theres my story. Im workign on finding in person meetings I can go to. Thanks for letting me share this. Thanks for reading!
Jenni