chicory, I am sorry that you are sad for the pending death of your previous husband. You and him spent five years together as husband and wife, and shared many things together during that time. You witnessed his good, the bad, and the ugly sides of him. I feel you are very sad for the good side of him; you're not concentrating on his bad and ugly sides. Your sadness is for the pending death of of his good side. The bad and ugly side of him is what you could not live with and ultimately divorced.
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