Lol, thanks for your honesty! I know I've been guilty of similar thinking, for me its generally a manifestation of the re-emergence of my ego because my spiritual house is not in order. Alcohol is longer a solution to fill whatever void I have plaguing me and I have often resorted to using attention (especially from women) to fill that void. Whenever that starts happening to me, its generally a good indication that I need to revisit the work and see how my spiritual life is.