Thanks everyone for such a warm welcome! I've been doing some reading all around here this morning, what an amazing place
I'm going to attend an Al-Anon meeting next week (it's Friday here and the next one is Monday by the looks of it). I just spoke to my mother and she vehemently denied drinking, saying she couldn't have had just a couple and she would've been all over the place emotionally if she had. I asked her to explain how both me and my flatmate smelt it on her and she said it must be acetone breath she gets when she doesn't eat.
Which is funny because when I offered her something to eat yesterday she said she'd already eaten...
So once again I'm in two minds about everything, but this site and all your words are so helpful. I'm trying not to feel guilty for doubting her as she sounded so straight just before on the phone and proclaimed she was 50 days sober today. Is it weird to hope that she's not lying, even after all this time?