The "new" weird physical reactions to drinking as my alcoholism progressed were the main reason I wanted to quit drinking. Even weirder is how I kept drinking until I did, indeed, have that morning drink to calm the shakes even though I never thought it would get that bad. And even then kept drinking!
I had to be open to making many changes and getting support so that I could quit because my life, if you could call it that, wasn't working for me.