Originally Posted by
everydaypeople 
thank you! I keep checking back here for words of encouragement or shared experiences and other threads. Luckily I have a newborn and a 3 year old to distract me, though I'm scattered and a bit absent minded with them at the moment.
Be gentle with yourself! I think scattered and absent-minded is normal given your circumstances.
Any chance once the little ones are down for the night that perhaps you could start a journal, something to pour your thoughts out on to help with the processing?
Sometimes a good cry is what I need. When you speak of the times you had growing up, there has got to be some pain mixed in with the sadness perhaps?
I wish I had better suggestions for you, but I'm at a bit of a loss myself. Just know I am sending you warm hugs on the Kansas breezes!
Kiss those little ones for me too. My 'baby' turned 22 this past summer!