Hey Lilly--Good for you on getting through your urges last night. I'm on day 2 from pot and it is so hard not to just give in when I know just a little bit would take the edge off. Do get to a meeting, though, and don't worry about "having to talk." If nothing else, you can always just say, "My name is Lilly and I am an addict. I'm glad to be here and glad to be clean today and with that I'll pass." People do it all the time. Most people think it is a good idea to just listen a lot when you are early in recovery anyway. And no one is going to have a problem with you coming back after being gone for a while. They will just be glad to see you.
Hang in there. WE can do it!!!