Welcome MsCooter!! So glad you found us!
Its a very supportive and informational forum.
I also tried to moderate. Sure, I could do it if I tried really hard, but as soon as I relaxed about it, my alcoholism snuck right back up on me, and I ended up drinking to blackouts. Not cool.
So I decided that after thinking about it for a few months, that I'd go to a meeting. Best thing I ever did.
Hope to see ya around!