Love is not some mystical magical word that solves all of lifes issues. Loving someone doesn't change your personality or theirs, love is an action word, love does not hurt, love does not belittle.
The word love is bantered around so much today, I ask myself does anyone really understand what love really is? My answer....very few.
Love yourself first, take care of you, and your children, they need to be your priorty. It is your responsibility to not expose them to toxic behavior, no matter how much you "love" him, children must come first.