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Have you read all the posts for today?? Reading these will give you an idea what you are in for. Sharing here will help.
Have you tried Al-Anon meetings?? Between meetings and here you will learn how to take care of you. Noone can help the A, but if we change , they sometimes change, and or we can deceide if we can stay, or if we should leave.
There is so much to learn about what to do and not do. Always at your own pace, and there are no right or wrongs, just what works for each of us. but I would start reading, finding meetings, etc. We can learn the greatest lessons ever. around the greatest people ever. Best Always Clancy46