Kindeyes

My son gets out of rehab tomorrow. I haven't talked with him since last week. I don't call him and he hasn't called me. I've enjoyed the serenity that I have experienced knowing that he's clean and sober while he's in treatment. But now that he's getting out tomorrow, I'm having a bit of a battle trying to keep that serene feeling.......anxiety keeps hitting me with these icky blows. I'll be feeling ok one minute and the next.......it feels like WHAM a wave of anxiety hits me and I have to struggle with it to get it back under control.

I'm trying very hard to live in today and not worry about tomorrow but I'm having a bit of a rough time doing that today. So......as I write this I'm asking myself....."Self, so what are you going to do about this anxiety? It belongs to you.....not to anybody else."

So I'm going to stop here......and go out on my eliptical and have a good cry and see if I can get rid of it.....just for today.

Thanks for "listening". It helps to admit it.

gentle hugs