Glad you are with us Construct and sharing your experience. The early days are a bit rough and are confusing but you can and will overcome. As we all know, our addictions didn't just happen overnight so it will take time for health and overall well being to improve.
SR has been a solid piece in my recovery and coming here has been a blessing to me. When I relapsed early this year.....I looked at it and said...what can I do different? I found that keeping with SR and getting face to face support to work for me.
You can do this so please keep going. You are already writing the new chapter in your life and if you find that what you are doing isn't enough (give that a bit of time) then add to it. There are so many support options available and who you are now defines you not the alcohol nor drugs....thats how I view it.
We can begin anew my friend.