Hi and welcome!
Sorry for all that you are going through. A helpful step for leaving is to access free consultations from lawyers who will help you to understand how you can make it on your own.
Reading the stickies at the top of the forum provide a wealth of info about A and life with A. Most of which you will probably see going on in your life.
The most important next step will be finding support and staying connected to support.
I didn't want to leave my AH when I first got here, still not D but we are not together. Did not think I would see the day that I could let go - but it is here after reading, posting, and seeing what life has to offer without him. While it is not the only option and it is entirely up to you, feeling safe is important for you and the kids.
