Thanks everyone, maybe I am too hard on myself. I just wasn't expecting it. I guess it's good that even though he was hating me, I was still kind to him. So it's okay if I do little things for him, as long as it doesn't enable him to drink. No pillows, or couch to sleep on, no getting out of trouble, no paying rent, no money for alcohol? I need to read more of the Co. no more, but just can't do it on weekends. Going to sleep now, for me!! Have to be to work early tomorrow. Thank you all so much! Still want to believe in "don't mistake my kindness for weakness." Right?