Welcome Littlesoul,
I would suggest you see your Doctor if you've been drinking for a while. You have to switch up the message in your brain. Keep repeating over and over in your mind NO, NO NO. Alcohol is destroying my body and soul. You have to want this more than you want to drink. I think I would head off to AA and stay away from the store today! Anything to keep your mind occupied. I spent the day here reading day and night to fight the urge to drink. Once day 1 is over you can get through the next a little easier. If you continue to drink everday and do the same things the results will be no different.
Try something different today!