Well, the idea that I am the calm steady one.
The one who needs no support or help, I am there when you need me as a rock to steady you by.
Or a rudder to gently steer you (after of course finding out what makes you tick)
Maybe I gave him the idea that I need less than others, because I was afraid being needy would make him run away.
When I asked for some attention, straight out, he said
"i thought you were the one person i could count on who didnt need to be emotionally baby sat."
i am crying right now, i feel so foolish and lonely.
i deserve better than this. i thought i was getting it.