kindeyes- it is not in my nature to get stuck in the anger. in fact, my friends don't understand why i don't get angry. i like to think i have some zen thing going on, but more than likely it is a defense mechanism from childhood when i was not allowed to express it. so i never learned how. i had to bottle it up and channel it some other way. but yes, it is part of the process.
daisy- i am taking this as a blessing. she did something i was not prepared to do yet. i woud still be stuck in this or feeling way guilty for leaving her. i am seeing this all as a lesson. after all these years i finally learned how i want to be treated in a relationship. i was always a pleaser and put all my needs aside. i don't need much, but i need what i need. this round with her seemed different because, although high, was meeting those needs. but that wouldn't have lasted. so, yes, we deserve to happy.