Well I called my boss and told him I had "the flu" so hopefully I still have a job. He has became enraged in the past when I showed up to work smelling of alcohol because I deal with the public. I finally managed to eat some soup and made a call to another clinic to see a psychiatrist that will hopefully work with me. I have been prescribed benzos for years & coming off of them in this stressful time of my life is out of the question. I need the pills because my hangovers are so bad. I decided not to go back to the bar I guess that would be a dumb decision.