Originally Posted by
anaconda22 
I guess I just don't want it bad enough or I'm "constitutionally incapable of being honest". That was my personal favorite line from mainstream AA'ers.
Nah, it's not usually that fancy.
There was no way I was going to quit when I didn't really want to quit, when I still got a payoff for it, and when I was still living in the delusion that I was in control.
Good luck to you anaconda.....keep checking in and letting us know how you're doing.