Ana,
I'm 5 months sober, starting my 6th month. I have yet to visit a bar or put myself into a situation where my sobriety was in jeopardy. I've missed a lot of family get togethers, parties, and outings with friends. In all honesty, it was very hard to do. But, I stayed sober. That was the most important thing to me.
When you make up your mind to get some help and remove alcohol from your life you can accomplish anything. It's all up to you.......not a bartender, a police officer or anyone else. I hope you can come to these conclusions on your own. I hope it doesn't take a horrific event before this happens.
Best Wishes