OK, I drank and got "messed up" with a lot of people.
Most are now married with kids and have toned it down.
I, and a few others kept up the "party" and got hooked.
Why? Because some of us are wired that way.
Like all abused/bullied people don't go "postal", some were just wired that way.
I met my barman in AA, 7 yrs sober! This guy would smoke the leg of a chair!
He is completely turned around! That is what is good. We know what is wrong and we can fix it. As Ron White says; "You can't fix stupid" so we are lucky.
So, no, I do not believe I caused my alcoholism.
It is physical, spiritual and emotional. Of all the things I have done wrong, this was not one of them.
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