Hey LT,
Looking back it seems almost blatant to me that I intentionally might've triggered my own alcoholism. I spent years and years drinking like any normal college kid would, in fact probably drinking less than the people I hung out with. I made a decision one month to just drink straight to numb a very painful emotional situation I was going through and I never recovered from the effects of that self-imposed binge.
But what I hear constantly from people in my AA program that I think is incredibly wise advice: I am an alcoholic. It doesn't matter how I got here, I am here. And that's all I have to work with.