You are not the person you used to be nor the person you were yesterday... you are new today.... you define yourself today
No one ever is going to make you feel more like you, but you.
I was still in touch with some ex's but said bye to them all. Why, because too many days have been spent in the past, they are anchors to the past as well. While in my mind I am in August 2008 (or way earlier) I am missing my life and the people that are actually within my reach and bring good things to my life.
Is it your ego or your spirit talking? are you up to living in reality or are you looking for false doors? how is your relationship with HP/God doing? and what about small SteppingUp. Look up some pics of you as a kid or baby. What would make him feel protected? and what will make you feel proud, when you are way older and look back at your own life?