Welcome to SR ((Bigred95))! When I was in early recovery, I spent a lot of time here...reading old posts, finding out that there are others who have BTDT and getting an idea of what recovery is all about. Don't know if you're interested in meetings, but AA may be an option. There are all kinds of ways to find recovery...it all starts with not picking up.
I also made myself remember how really miserable I was, in the end, of my drug use. If it was all so great, why are we wanting to quit? It's easy to glamourize our addiction, but facing the hard truth worked better for me...I had to do it, probably, hundreds of time a day, but it did work.
Another thing I did was, when thoughts of using would come up, I'd tell myself "not an option...next", with "next" being a cue to distract myself. Did THAT hundreds of times a day, too, at first, but it eventually became automatic.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy