Maybe Thelma and Louise instead of Twilight..put you in touch with some female power! Jk..try some alanonmeetings..peeps there let me cry to them, then push me forward.I totally ge the urge to rebel..I am 40 yrs old and just yesterday was fantasizing about running away..and yet as you said..always seem to reget those rebel without a cause moments. Hope you are feeling a little better.