The needle is a seductive beauty and it's been my true love for a really long time. I've been injecting just about anything (speed, crystal, MDMA, coke) for more than 20 years.
For me it's a Pavlov's dog thing - when I see the needle I get so excited, I shake. When I see injecting on TV, I get a rush. The feeling is like no other. Well, it's like sex or even better than sex.
I've never done any formal recovery although loads of friends have. I have had extended clean breaks - sometimes for years. But I've never really ventured far. I've always just survived on the edge and managed to get by, generally undetected. Recently, I've come close.
I'm new here, so one day I'll ask what people think of "functional addicts" which is what I guess I'd call myself. Not today, though.