I never know who will show up to lunch , the sweet one or the scary one. I cannot handle the scary one.
To me, this is an excellent reason NOT to go.
But, I do understand that pull to see the "sweet" guy.
Bring a pic of your avatar guy, and think of him as your recovery and how strong it is.
IF you cant bring that strength with you, I would stay away a little longer.
Or, meet for coffee after a meeting.
Beth