It was truly the most traumatic experience I've experienced. I feel so betrayed (especially since she tried to spin the blame on me - for coming over there unannounced - and I had a key to her place!).
This kind of betrayal is a deeply painful thing. It is shocking and numbing to learn that someone you've given yourself to can choose to hurt you like that. I'm sorry you're feeling that pain, yet hoping it can work in your favor as an experience to learn from and grow from. It can if you will let it. You can do it.
Congratulations on your 10 months of sobriety.
That is something positive to stay focused on, a reason to grow and move forward. There is a happy life on the other side of betrayal. Stay here and keep posting. Hugs and peace to you.