Recovery is hard work, it is a decision to turn over a new leaf, it is actively seeking help. It's not easy to get humble, to publicly acknowledge one's sins. I don't regret finding recovery. I do know that when I was in active addiction I had no thoughts about consequences so in the beginning there was nothing to procrastinate over or fix. I was following my doctor's orders and bam addicted. I don't think addiction can be shoehorned into a certain category, not all generalizations work , each person comes to addiction differently and each person seeks recovery differently. There usually is hell to pay after the addiction has run it's course but as I said for me I wasn't running from or hiding from things, I grew up with low self esteem, tried to be perfect tried to control things and found out I was not in control and could not do anything perfectly. Many of the addicts I met in rehab had similar stories of damaged childhoods, low self esteem. Each person is unique.