stayinsober -
-- you're doing good.
I journal to try to get the 'stuff' pent up inside out. Might help you. Good that you recognize where you're at and that you are reaching out also! I LOVE your little icon thingy - Instant Idiot Just Add Alcohol - funny, but true.
I'm battling some heavy anxiety today also - feels like I could slam a few, but I won't give up almost two weeks of sobriety on something that isn't going to last, but just cover up what I most need help with and healed.
Maybe you should focus on what has been good about these last 7 days and not so much the 'fear of failing'. Write them down. Take today for today - don't worry about tomorrow or the next day. Just focus on today.