My son didn't survive addiction...it killed him.
Reading about your son reminds me just how awful addiction is and how it will
literally ruin a child's life. Addicts keep using no matter the consequences.
It is beyond comprehension.
My son was sober the two yrs. before he died. In those two yrs. he still struggled
with severe depression. However, the loving, honest, witty son I raised came back for those two yrs.
When our kids are addicts they become someone we can't even know, trust or get close to.
I hope you get your son back one day soon.
I hope you have moments of peace in the mean time.
Don't give up on him, stay connected. You did the right thing
to help him in the baby-steps way you did. He just couldn't get clean yet.
It sounds like he wishes he was.