hunny - the is no weariness like the weariness of carrying another person's addiction - our own addictions can tire us out but we have it within our power to do something about our own struggles - we cannot make those decisions for someone else even someone so important to us as our son - i know that the only comfort and strength i have found is in God and His faithfulness - i saw a quote on a church sign the other day - it said "with faith in God the dark clouds of trouble are just the shadow of His wings" - i am the mother of an AS who is in jail right now with about 2 years ahead of him in some state correctional facility - you and your son will be in my prayers