Thanks for the support. I have been spending a lot of time researching addiction and watching movies/reading. I think that contributes to the loneliness, because I feel like I should be putting that time/energy into making new friends. I guess if I'm alone at night watching movies and reading it's better than drinking. As long as I'm sober I guess I'm doing alright.
I think the "cloudiness" comes from going soooo long without feeling. It's going to take me a while to come to terms with my emotions-and somehow become aware of how I feel and how to deal with that feeling.
Thanks again
