Originally Posted by scared1

Crush, I have only been sober 3 days today is the begining of day 4 but I know I am tired of being drunk or buzzed every day of my life. I am a mother and my children deserve better than the mess that I have been. I am a "functioning alcholic" I just bought a house on my own 1 year ago and I have a great job that I love but secretly I am a drunk. Everyone knows I drink but no one really knows that I drink myself to sleep every night. I need to change my pattern and cope with reality. This weekend will be my first weekend trying to stay sober. I have to be strong and find the courage to hang in there.