I binge drank for 30 years. Or, I should say, I started out binging. At times it turned into every day. All day, for days. But whenever I took that first drink, it wouldn't stop.
What scared me sober once, was going into mild withdrawal. At the time I thought I had it under control, because I made the decision to drink every other day, instead of evey day.
Dind't turn out too well for me.
I'm an alcoholic, and that's what alchoholics do; drink.
You have nothing to be ashamed about. Now, nine months sober I have no regrets. I had a lot of fun drinking, until it progressed where I would drink alone just to get drunk.
Believe me, it only gets worse.
Just try and not pick up that first drink. That's very important
You are certainly not alone in your problem. Many of us have been where you are.
Welcome to SR, and best to you!