yep i know i do my minds all over the place atm this isnt easy but im too stubborn to try going back this time so i will do what i said i would one day at a time and if i cant do it will unblock it that way if i know i can undo it at anytime i prob wont do its the thought that its permanent thats the tough one if i just go day to day knowing i can change it anytime i want that will be easier even though i dont think i will but u get where im coming from eh xx