TC are you ever going ahead in leaps and bounds. Should give you the Kanga Medal for that.
It sounds weird later on, to realise that so many of us actually don't know or trust US, and even knowing someone is a spaced out, wacko drunk.....we can still take in their crud comments and let them hurt us, despite knowing they are not true.
When we reach that level where we know who and what we truly are, we are free to hand all referred crud back whence it comes, telling the sender "this is yours not mine".
I do not have a clue what actually makes a Luny tick, or really care much any more, as it was just too much stress, hassle and hurt.