I think our society teaches us from a very young age that we are always supposed to 'reach out.' Doubtless, it's a good thing to do and when someone responds it makes life a lot easier. In my experience, however, every single one of my friends will respond with 'I'm not good at this,' or 'you're really talking to the wrong person for this' even though they are people I've been friends with for a decade.
A friend once told me 'the only person you can count on is yourself.' It sounds cliche, dumb, and like the thing the stupid character in a movie will find out isn't really true, but it actually is. Reach out to others, but don't let that be your breaking point. You can't be dependent on others... This is why people say 'quit for yourself.' If you quit for someone else, and that someone else leaves the scene, suddenly you're faced with dilemma.
I hope that you find someone who will let you open up to them, but I also hope that in the meantime you can get thru this okay
