Hey Fee11,
Originally Posted by
Fee11 
Alcohol is the monster under my bed because it is going to kill me soon if I dont beat it. I pick up because of anxiety too. I'm fighting stopping for a couple this morning before work. It seems like having a buzz lets me look like I'm in control and not worried over every little aspect of day to day interactions.
I didn't stop for fear of a few beers among friends. Rather I stopped because of what those few beers lead to.
"The only cure for the poison is more poison."
-- someone from SR describing withdrawal, the "What to expect" thread
I also often needed to sip in the morning. Alcohol ceased to "help" me with night time anxiety. But I began to "need" it to get through the day. It caused more anxiety than i was originally trying to escape.
Substituting one addiction for another
I don't drink anymore. Instead I spend all day babbling -- online forums, private messages, chatting after NA meetings, email, etc.
I really gotta start to get some work done.
