Stop!
Hold up - the 'depression' is your addiction's last ditch effort to open that door a crack, sticking it's claws in DESPERATELY trying to fling it wide open!
DO NOT GIVE IN! Live through it, breathe through it, read here like a man possessed, PM me, PM others with more time under their belt, come to the meeting tonight - do ANYTHING but drink.
You can do it - be the COMPLETE converse of your user name. Don't set yourself up for a fall - I am here - *RIGHT HERE* with you, breathing through Day 5.
Take my hand!