day 5 here too...i get it about the depression...i had to ask myself if alcohol ever really relieved the depression and my answer was "yes" for a couple of hours (maybe) and then the true depression would kick in. The depression that comes from drinking. When I was sober and realized that I had drank again...(like the morning after)THAT was the worst depression I experienced. Everything else seems manageable compared to that. Stay strong. Keep posting and reading.