Thanks, everyone, for your inspiring victories! I loved reading them.
Today I actually followed through on the visit with the lawyer! Learned I have serious exposure to alimony, and learned more about my options. It was very empowering to have that information. Not sure yet how I will act on it, but definitely proud of myself for doing it. One thing I am going to do--the lawyer advised me to start stashing money away "under the mattress." I've been so focused on my debt, I haven't thought about saving money for myself, but I'm definitely going to start protecting myself in that area.
Tonight I am going to map out weeknights for AlAnon and yoga classes, and schedule at least a night a week for each. I have been way too resistant to going back to AlAnon, and as for yoga, I don't know why I haven't made time for it before this--my son even gave me a gift card for classes for my birthday last year and I haven't even taken advantage of it yet!