[QUOTE=Kjell;2722436]
....I'm sorry it came at such cost
heh, I don't know anyone in AA who said they got just the right amount of pain to where it started to hurt, they came to, and walked through those doors. Basically, we're the special forces of living with pain...it alllllllways takes "too much" to get our attention!
Originally Posted by
Kjell 
If I get jail time and whatever programs I'm put in, I might as well make the best of it and try to carry the message. I also might as well learn as much from this experience as possible.
helluva outlook... I'm proud of you brother.
Originally Posted by
Kjell My biggest hurdle is simply I want to be better NOW. I want to be free NOW. I want to start rebuilding my life...NOW. That's just simply not the case and there is much to do.
Heh... Boy, do I know THAT storyline... Lemme know how that line of thinking works out for ya
I worked that logic for a long time, got crushed by it mentally, finally had to surrender to maybe never "getting it ever"....then it came. LOL -- God's hilarious.